Wednesday of Week 29 in Ordinary Time
Rm 6:12-18
Lk 12:39-48
You may have been freed from the slavery of sin, but only to become ‘slaves’ of righteousness.
A few years back, I attended a Bible Study on the book of Exodus delivered by Msgr Ambrose Vaz. One of the key phrases that struck me was that the Israelites were freed from Egypt and made free for something.
What am I made free for?
St John Paul II said that “Freedom consists not in doing what we like, but in having the right to do what we ought.” In our lives, there are many things that enslave us – our vices, our negative tendencies, our emotions, the activities that fill our days, ministry, past trauma, hurts, pains, relationships, dreams, etc. Sometimes, even prayer, when it’s preventing us from doing what we ought to, enslaves people.
And the list goes on.
One of the tips for breaking free from a bad habit is to replace that habit with a good one. Our minds are like a vacuum — if you remove something, it will either fill up with another thing, or cling on to what it was freed from. The same is true with our lives. If we do not do what we were made free for, we will definitely revert back to our old ways. Sometimes, being made free for something causes us anxiety since we may be facing something unfamiliar. It’s all too easy to crave for what we feel is familiar.
One of the things I gave up was being active in the ministry. Let me emphasise that I am not asking any of you to leave the ministry, but I would encourage all of you to discern. You see, I had been active in the ministry for a good 10 years but was feeling like I have not been receiving any formation. I was feeling empty. So I left and now, I’m not part of any ministry.
And immediately afterwards, I planned what ministry I should do. I was thinking of creating more Catholic YouTube videos, or writing more in my blog. Then, I realised that I was just filling up my time which God is calling me to dedicate to Him, under His terms. I really feel that this is the time God wants to use to fill me up, and as with all decisions, we’ll know if it’s right if you start seeing fruits. I have never felt truly loved and appreciated until I quit the ministry to work on myself with God. Now that I am no longer contributing to anyone, I could feel how much the people in my Church care about me. I think this is it — God freed me from what I was doing, so I could be free to see and receive the love people are giving me.
When God is freeing us from something, I think we should have that conversation with God as to what He wants us to do. And sometimes, the answer is just to be free to wait on Him.
(Today’s OXYGEN by Stephanie Villa)
Prayer: Dearest Father, help me trust you when you are freeing me from something.
Thanksgiving: Thank you, Lord, for giving me the freedom to do what you made me for.
OXYGEN 
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