Tuesday of Week 15 in Ordinary Time
“Clearly that business has come to light.”
If anyone has been following the news here in Singapore, you may have noted a few stories on huge, multi-million dollar scams that have been uncovered. I occasionally read the reports just to try and fathom how even well-known financial institutions and highly educated, business-savvy individuals could have been so easily duped by these people. It is patently obvious that the ‘appearance of wealth’ played an important role in convincing those around that they were ‘good investments’. When phrases such as ‘…spending up to two million a month…’ and ‘…capped each person’s spending at $10,000 a week…’ pop up, the mind boggles at the scale and nature of keeping up pretences just to allow the deceit to foment.
I used to live life in a fog of pretence — always at the hippest clubs, wearing the latest fashion item (shoes, jeans), allowing my ego to rule, and generally living beyond my means. Naturally, things would come to light at some point, causing misunderstandings, broken relationships and certainly a lot of heartache, hurt and anger. Having to hold up different cloaks and wearing different masks (depending on who I was with) eventually led to a realisation that I was constantly running away from a reality that I had to face up to.
Brothers and sisters, whatever your station and wherever you are on your journey in life, we all will face a final reckoning when we come face to face with Jesus. It is merely a question of whether we live our life in Christ while we still have our time on earth, or choose to ignore Christ’s call and fritter away our time here till our very last breath. The beauty of all this is that, even if we choose to repent at the very last, Christ will still welcome us into His embrace (what some of us call the ‘express lane’ route).
So why bother with Christ now? I have been pondering this over the past few months. Why not revert to my old ways (now that I have discovered Christ), and then when I am on my deathbed, do a sincere, heartfelt Sacrament of Reconciliation? Surely Christ will forgive me and restore me to wholeness.
“And as for you, Capernaum, did you want to be exalted as high as heaven? You shall be thrown down to hell. For if the miracles done in you had been done in Sodom, it would have been standing yet. And still, I tell you that it will not go as hard with the land of Sodom on Judgement day as with you.”
I offer two reasons why I don’t think it works that way. Firstly, our God is all-knowing and sees through all of us. There is no corner in our heart so dark that He cannot shine His divine light into — nothing escapes Him. I certainly don’t want to incur His wrath
More importantly, I lived long enough under various ‘cloaks’ to know that the more one tries to sweep things under the carpet, the worse things will become. And inevitably, hearts will be broken. I know for certain that I do NOT want to break Jesus’ heart — not after all that He has done for me.
(Today’s OXYGEN by Desmond Soon)
Prayer: Dear Lord, we pray that you never leave us and that however far we stray from you, always be there to shine your light into our hearts so that we will find our way back to you.
Thanksgiving: Father, we thank you for your loving and merciful embrace. We thank you for the gift of Jesus Christ, who gave up His life for us so that we can enjoy eternal life in your arms.
Thank you for this reflection, for your sharing of self and for the the thoughts most of us have had. God bless