“The wind blows where it wills, and you can hear the sound it makes, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes“
As I read today’s gospel readings, this line struck me as both very poetic and rather strange. “The wind blows where it wills, and you can hear the sound it makes, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes; so it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit”. While we may have received the Holy Spirit in our baptism, there is still no guarantee that we will know what happens to us tomorrow, or the day after. From time immemorial, Christians have lived in the deep uncertainty of fear, persecution, and even violence.
As Jesus has reminded us in Mark 13: 32, “But of that day or hour, no one knows, neither the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father”.
Having grappled with illness and my own uncertain mortality, this is a thought that has kept me awake on many a sleepless night. However, the Holy Spirit has imbued us with one importance piece of knowledge: that we have a God who loves us. A God who will receive us with open arms when we breathe our last amidst our earthly sufferings, and who will forgive a contrite heart when we come before Him, muddied in our own shame and sins. But we need not wait till that day to seek our Father’s forgiveness.
Since we know neither the day or hour, we must try to live each day as if it is our last, as if the Lord will call us to Him tomorrow. As Jesus goes on to teach in Mark 13: 33, “Be watchful! Be alert! You do not know when the time will come”. As Jesus has so often taught us, we must repent, for the Kingdom is coming. And above all, we must love each other, as He has loved us. Love and Repentance. This is what it means for the Christian to be watchful during our many nights of fear and terror. It never gets any easier, but the least we can do is to keep trying every day.
(Today’s Oxygen by Jacob Woo)
Prayer: Lord, we ask for Your wisdom and providence, as we continue to navigate this vale of tears. We ask only for the obedience to follow you, our Shepherd, as we traverse these dark valleys, in the blessed hope of entering into the Kingdom that You have prepared for us.
Thanksgiving: Heavenly Father, we thank You for the certainty of Your love. We thank You for continuing to love us even when we have been wayward and sinful.