Monday of Week 10 in Ordinary Time
1 Kgs 17:1-6
One thing that all of us are probably reminded of during this time of COVID-19 pandemic is how little control we have over the events in our lives. Some of us may have been stranded somewhere, some were probably in a middle of job search, and yet the market has changed. Some were supposed to get married but they had to postpone their wedding. The structure of our daily lives has been thrown to the wind.
I don’t want to romanticize suffering, it is really difficult. But if I have to be honest, this COVID-19 pandemic is making me rely on God more. You see, I’ve had this string of achievements and I knew that if I worked hard, I’d be able to achieve what I set my heart on. While I profess that I trust in God, my situation before this was not really helping me internalize it. And maybe it’s the same for you. Maybe not in your career, but maybe in other aspects of your life. In a sense, this derailment of my plans made me sad.
Then before I knew it, I realized that I was already searching for happiness in my achievements. I was revelling in my false sense of control. And God used this time to teach me about real happiness.
I’m not sure how many of us have thought of this, but those happy people described in the Beatitudes were actually really vulnerable – poor in spirit, gentle, those who mourn, those who are hungry and thirsty for what is right, those who are merciful, those who are pure in heart, the peacemakers, the persecuted. They really had no other option but to rely on God and his promises, to rely on God for protection. I have to admit, that level of trust is something I don’t yet have.
So while I struggle to cope with what’s happening, I also try my best to be grateful. I know it’s ironic but it’s only when we go through struggles, that we realize what is really important to us and what brings us happiness.
This is how I’m imagining everything to be. I am building a puzzle in front of God. One by one, I put in the pieces and I get excited when things match. Eventually, God sees that I’m not as happy as he wants me to be. So He allows the wind to blow and mess up my puzzle, and He invites me to make a new puzzle with him. This time, it’s a clear jigsaw puzzle.
During this time, He’s inviting you and me to discover true happiness, even if we can’t see it.
(Today’s OXYGEN by Stephanie Villa)
Prayer: Dearest Lord God, please help us in the midst of this COVID-19 pandemic. We pray for all of us who are affected, but we pray most especially for those who are vulnerable. Please let us know how we can help. Thank you.
Thanksgiving: Thank you Lord, for your wisdom in allowing events to happen in our lives that could make us truly happy.